Traveling is often a journey of discovery, but for one American traveler, it has also been a journey of introspection. As an avid traveler, she finds herself grappling with unexpected emotions and reflections on her identity as an American abroad. During her latest adventure, lasting nearly five weeks, she experienced the world through a unique lens, encountering various perceptions about her homeland.
In recent travels, this author has noticed a shift in how people perceive Americans. Once greeted with enthusiasm, particularly when mentioning being from California, she now receives subdued reactions. This change prompted self-reflection and a desire to "blend in, respect the culture, and read the room" to avoid the label of the "ugly American." Her efforts underscore a broader trend among travelers striving for cultural sensitivity.
Amid these experiences, she has been embarrassed by fellow Americans who sometimes behave poorly overseas. This behavior has led her to contemplate claiming Canadian nationality when abroad. The awkwardness was compounded by interactions with locals who seemed genuinely concerned about America's current state.
“Believe me, I’m American and I’m just as confused as you are.” – The narrator
For this traveler, the conversations with strangers offered a surprising source of solace. Despite the absence of positive remarks about the US from locals during her trip, she found comfort in their compassionate tone and genuine concern for America. An Uber driver initiated a conversation by asking about her political stance, bringing US politics into the spotlight once again.
“He asked.” – The narrator
The human connection she found was particularly comforting as a solo menopausal traveler. Strangers expressed their condolences as if the US were entering hospice care, losing its faculties, freedom, rights, and voice. This empathetic approach helped her make sense of the chaos observed from afar.
As she prepares to return home today, her emotions are mixed. The thought of returning fills her with dread about what the next four years may hold. The weight of these feelings is compounded by her family's history; they escaped Kosovo in the late 1990s.
“My family escaped Kosovo in the late 90s,” – The narrator
Reflecting on coping mechanisms for stress during these tumultuous times, she has heard varied approaches: "bingeing on chocolate, cheap wine, Cheetos, and Netflix" or engaging in activities like knitting or mahjong. In some cases, adopting a pet offers solace.
“I’ve heard everything from bingeing on chocolate, cheap wine, Cheetos, and Netflix to taking up knitting or mahjong, or adopting a cat. Anything to preserve our sanity.” – The narrator
This sense of unease is not restricted to Americans alone. A stranger shared their concern about the uncertain future that lies ahead for America.
“This is true. Not yet, anyway … but the seed has been planted in your country and so, we are afraid for you.” – The narrator